multiple spirituality

So, when MaryClare dies and goes to heaven or wherever it is that she’s going to be with God, do we all get to go with her, or is just her as the host that owns the body who gets to go? Sasha asked a friend of ours. If someone is going to ask aContinue reading “multiple spirituality”

the addict’s rosary

There is no addict’s rosary, but praying the sorrowful mysteries often reminds me of powerlessness. One of the first things an addict in recovery does is admit powerlessness. I don’t like it any more now than I did when I first started recovery, but it’s necessary all the same. Without admitting powerlessness, I can’t getContinue reading “the addict’s rosary”

baby jesus cried

The last two times I have prayed the Joyful Mysteries on the rosary, I have seen Jesus, just after birth, wrapped in weird looking blankets, and in his mother Mary’s arms. He’s just been fed, and he does not need to be changed. He fusses as he squirms in Mary’s arms, and with that, heContinue reading “baby jesus cried”

invitation from jesus

I run the prayer rope through my thumb and index finger on my right hand, which now has a blister on it from the many hundreds of knots I’ve slid through in the hour I’ve been praying. Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner. I feel guilty as sin aboutContinue reading “invitation from jesus”

why jesus?

I once went a place that I should not have been (well, I’ve been many places I should not have been, but this is just about this one), I went to the house of a man who had a small Pagan store in his home. I was there to purchase crystals, spells, runes and shitContinue reading “why jesus?”

it’s me again, jesus

Jesus, it’s me again.I feel like I’m a disappointment to you,I’m certainly a disappointment to myself.I know that I promised not to do that again,because I when I promised amendment of life,I truly did mean it at the time.But here I am, having done the same shit again.I learned it as a coping skill.I didContinue reading “it’s me again, jesus”

vision of the glorious mysteries

I’ve had visions on two complete sets of rosary mysteries in the last few months as I’ve prayed the rosary. I’ve had a vision of the sorrowful mysteries and the glorious mysteries, and today I want to share what I saw when I saw the glorious mysteries. I’ve not really shared about any of myContinue reading “vision of the glorious mysteries”

a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.”

Me: Jesus, I’ve fucked up again as far as being angry about shit I can’t control and in so doing, gotten to where I don’t feel as close to you, and to where I’m tempted to relapse. The thing is, I know I need to repent and as far as confessing, that’s what I’m doingContinue reading “a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.””

spirituality from st. benedict

Benedictine spirituality isn’t where I’ve come to fall on the vast spectrum of spiritual ideas even just within Christianity, but I think I’ve benefitted a lot from some of St. Benedict’s ideas. I have read the Rule of St. Benedict several times, and I appreciate his insistence on a structured spiritual life. This isn’t toContinue reading “spirituality from st. benedict”

when mary magdalene met jesus

Today is St. Mary Magdalene’s feast day. Almost every time I tell someone that my patron saint is Mary Magdalene, they say to me you know she wasn’t a prostitute, right? I know people mean no harm, but it’s an offensive question, first of all because it insinuates that she was less of a personContinue reading “when mary magdalene met jesus”