“but it only hurts me”

I remember telling my friend, when I started my step four in my recovery work, that some things weren’t important because they only hurt me. My friend called bullshit on that and she also said that I am of value and when I hurt myself I’ve still hurt someone. Often, the things that I thoughtContinue reading ““but it only hurts me””

just call me judas

A few days ago, a friend and I were discussing that fact that although all of the rosary mysteries are meaningful and worthy of much meditation, the most profound for us are the Sorrowful Mysteries. I think perhaps that just happens when one’s relationship not just with God but with the world has been rockyContinue reading “just call me judas”

jesus, stuff is fucked up and shit

I need to be somewhere that I can exist for free while my kids visit with their father. Everyone else has gone to lunch because they can, and I want to go too but it costs money not to be lonely. I was invited to lunch today. They don’t always invite me, but today theyContinue reading “jesus, stuff is fucked up and shit”

marian consecration prayer

Tomorrow on the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, I will consecrate myself to Mary and in so doing, ultimately to Jesus, which is the point. I have written my own consecration prayer, but I will also use others as well. For those of you familiar with the baptismal renunciations and promises in the BookContinue reading “marian consecration prayer”

living liturgically (season one, episode eight, epiphany 2022)

I saw a meme on Facebook the other day that, in speaking of the wise men, said “once we meet Jesus, we all go home by another way.” It was quite profound to me then as it is now. Epiphany reminds me of the concept of seeking and finding. I grew up being told aboutContinue reading “living liturgically (season one, episode eight, epiphany 2022)”

devotion to mary

Two years ago, if you had told me I’d have a particular devotion to Mary, and to the rosary, I’d have laughed to your face. It’s not that I had a problem with Mary necessarily, it was that I didn’t know her and didn’t feel the need to know her. I respected other people’s devotionContinue reading “devotion to mary”

sackcloth and ashes

This is an offering to Mary by one of my personalities, Sorrow. Many of us are preparing for Marian consecration for the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, and so we are reading, praying, and learning. Mary has been an excellent mother to us and most of us are glad to have her. So, hereContinue reading “sackcloth and ashes”

dear mary

Our Lady of Guadalupe,
thank-you for the roses,
the ones you gave to Juan Diego,
and the ones you gave to me,
the waterlily also.

living liturgically (season one, episode four, advent 2021)

What I came to realize, right before Christmas, is that instead of focusing on all the terrible things of the past, I can enter Christmas knowing that Jesus has delivered me from those things…

joyful mysteries from the magnificat

In the nativity, we think of the sweet baby Jesus, we sing “away in a manger” and “joy to the world,” celebrating the reasons that Jesus came, and excited about God being with us. But let’s turn now to Mary’s calling.