the agony in the garden made personal

Please note: all names have been changed to protect the clearly guilty, despite this original event happening seventeen years ago in another country. Last week Jesus allowed me to see him in a deeply personal way in the sorrowful mysteries. I have seen Jesus in all of the sorrowful mysteries, but this time it wasn’tContinue reading “the agony in the garden made personal”

special devotions – chaplet of st michael

I’m completely and utterly allergic to those pretty looking books with flowers or a scenic picture or something trendy on the cover that contain devotional readings. I’ve been allergic to devotionals for quite some years now, and the allergy gets worse with time, and so I must have minimal exposure in order to survive myContinue reading “special devotions – chaplet of st michael”

penitential rosary

I wanted to share a way in which I pray the rosary in a penitential manner when I’ve fucked up and need God’s help, especially with something in particular, which in this case was pride. Here’s an outline of how I do that, with an example that I prayed recently, after I had already doneContinue reading “penitential rosary”

seeking family

Just over sixteen years ago now, I sat with a bunch of people I didn’t know in a large church in my cult in North Carolina. I was twenty years old, I was single, and back in Australia I lived on my own which was unacceptable to the church and I needed to marry. WomenContinue reading “seeking family”

conversion and the rosary

I have been connecting with Bl. Bartolo Longo’s story so much. Although I was never and will never be a priest, I too got caught up in practicing witchcraft and messing in the occult. Bartolo was born into a Catholic family, but he rejected the faith and became a priest of Satan. He almost diedContinue reading “conversion and the rosary”

the power of the rosary

There once was a man who was a Satanic priest who became a Christian. That man’s name was Bartolo Longo. I read about Bl. Bartolo Longo about a month ago and was fascinated. This man was aware of the evil he had been involved with, and he was repentant, but unsure of whether God wouldContinue reading “the power of the rosary”

when we can’t pray

Last week I gave a rosary I had made to a person that I felt was in need of one. They had a severe medical emergency pop up and they were uncertain. This person had not asked anything of me but I knew they wanted me to sit with them while they waited 30 minutesContinue reading “when we can’t pray”

penance

I began to explore the life of St. Francis and his spirituality first because of the stigmata. As I looked further into his life, there were some other things I noticed also, one was his insistence on living penance. Until recently, I’d thought of penance as something that’s asked of me when I make aContinue reading “penance”

multiple spirituality

So, when MaryClare dies and goes to heaven or wherever it is that she’s going to be with God, do we all get to go with her, or is just her as the host that owns the body who gets to go? Sasha asked a friend of ours. If someone is going to ask aContinue reading “multiple spirituality”

the addict’s rosary

There is no addict’s rosary, but praying the sorrowful mysteries often reminds me of powerlessness. One of the first things an addict in recovery does is admit powerlessness. I don’t like it any more now than I did when I first started recovery, but it’s necessary all the same. Without admitting powerlessness, I can’t getContinue reading “the addict’s rosary”