tattoos, stories, prayer, redemption

My first tattoo I ever got was the word “grace” in cursive on my left wrist, with a date underneath it written like this 3-3-08. I still love the word grace on there, but I want to cover the date and I have a great way I want to fix that tattoo involving adding theContinue reading “tattoos, stories, prayer, redemption”

special devotions – chaplet of st michael

I’m completely and utterly allergic to those pretty looking books with flowers or a scenic picture or something trendy on the cover that contain devotional readings. I’ve been allergic to devotionals for quite some years now, and the allergy gets worse with time, and so I must have minimal exposure in order to survive myContinue reading “special devotions – chaplet of st michael”

penitential rosary

I wanted to share a way in which I pray the rosary in a penitential manner when I’ve fucked up and need God’s help, especially with something in particular, which in this case was pride. Here’s an outline of how I do that, with an example that I prayed recently, after I had already doneContinue reading “penitential rosary”

some of my conversations with the saints #1

St. John the Baptist: “John the Baptist, I relate to you some, since you were crazy and offbeat and misunderstood and lonely just like me, but bro, you couldn’t have been known as John the something else? Baptist has way too many connotations for me.” St. Peter the Apostle: “Peter, I so get you. IContinue reading “some of my conversations with the saints #1”

the woman caught in adultery

One day, while Jesus was on earth, a bunch of people brought a woman they considered to be scum, to Jesus, and dumped her at his feet. They wanted him to condemn her, and she was an easy target considering she had done something that society saw as terrible. These people were not interested inContinue reading “the woman caught in adultery”

conversion and the rosary

I have been connecting with Bl. Bartolo Longo’s story so much. Although I was never and will never be a priest, I too got caught up in practicing witchcraft and messing in the occult. Bartolo was born into a Catholic family, but he rejected the faith and became a priest of Satan. He almost diedContinue reading “conversion and the rosary”

the power of the rosary

There once was a man who was a Satanic priest who became a Christian. That man’s name was Bartolo Longo. I read about Bl. Bartolo Longo about a month ago and was fascinated. This man was aware of the evil he had been involved with, and he was repentant, but unsure of whether God wouldContinue reading “the power of the rosary”

penance

I began to explore the life of St. Francis and his spirituality first because of the stigmata. As I looked further into his life, there were some other things I noticed also, one was his insistence on living penance. Until recently, I’d thought of penance as something that’s asked of me when I make aContinue reading “penance”

it’s me again, jesus

Jesus, it’s me again.I feel like I’m a disappointment to you,I’m certainly a disappointment to myself.I know that I promised not to do that again,because I when I promised amendment of life,I truly did mean it at the time.But here I am, having done the same shit again.I learned it as a coping skill.I didContinue reading “it’s me again, jesus”

a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.”

Me: Jesus, I’ve fucked up again as far as being angry about shit I can’t control and in so doing, gotten to where I don’t feel as close to you, and to where I’m tempted to relapse. The thing is, I know I need to repent and as far as confessing, that’s what I’m doingContinue reading “a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.””