when we can’t pray

Last week I gave a rosary I had made to a person that I felt was in need of one. They had a severe medical emergency pop up and they were uncertain. This person had not asked anything of me but I knew they wanted me to sit with them while they waited 30 minutesContinue reading “when we can’t pray”

penance

I began to explore the life of St. Francis and his spirituality first because of the stigmata. As I looked further into his life, there were some other things I noticed also, one was his insistence on living penance. Until recently, I’d thought of penance as something that’s asked of me when I make aContinue reading “penance”

multiple spirituality

So, when MaryClare dies and goes to heaven or wherever it is that she’s going to be with God, do we all get to go with her, or is just her as the host that owns the body who gets to go? Sasha asked a friend of ours. If someone is going to ask aContinue reading “multiple spirituality”

the addict’s rosary

There is no addict’s rosary, but praying the sorrowful mysteries often reminds me of powerlessness. One of the first things an addict in recovery does is admit powerlessness. I don’t like it any more now than I did when I first started recovery, but it’s necessary all the same. Without admitting powerlessness, I can’t getContinue reading “the addict’s rosary”

invitation from jesus

I run the prayer rope through my thumb and index finger on my right hand, which now has a blister on it from the many hundreds of knots I’ve slid through in the hour I’ve been praying. Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner. I feel guilty as sin aboutContinue reading “invitation from jesus”

it’s me again, jesus

Jesus, it’s me again.I feel like I’m a disappointment to you,I’m certainly a disappointment to myself.I know that I promised not to do that again,because I when I promised amendment of life,I truly did mean it at the time.But here I am, having done the same shit again.I learned it as a coping skill.I didContinue reading “it’s me again, jesus”

vision of the glorious mysteries

I’ve had visions on two complete sets of rosary mysteries in the last few months as I’ve prayed the rosary. I’ve had a vision of the sorrowful mysteries and the glorious mysteries, and today I want to share what I saw when I saw the glorious mysteries. I’ve not really shared about any of myContinue reading “vision of the glorious mysteries”

a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.”

Me: Jesus, I’ve fucked up again as far as being angry about shit I can’t control and in so doing, gotten to where I don’t feel as close to you, and to where I’m tempted to relapse. The thing is, I know I need to repent and as far as confessing, that’s what I’m doingContinue reading “a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.””

redeeming family sins

I never wanted to homeschool. It was never a consideration. I thought it ought to be illegal, because I was abused by it and so were many others I know and our stories went unacknowledged with the rah rah homeschooling is amazing and the people who were hurt by it are few and far betweenContinue reading “redeeming family sins”

my prayer practice

I have wanted to share what some of my prayer practice looks like just to throw some ideas out there for anyone who is interested. I recommend reading Prayer Spa: Ancient Treatments for the Modern Soul as a helpful resource for anyone wanting further ideas on prayer practices. It’s a very short resource with someContinue reading “my prayer practice”