grieving eucharist, loving jesus

Disclaimer: Feelings are feelings, it doesn’t mean that they are reality, and I want to say that up front as I talk about deep grief, I experienced throughout the height of the COVID-19 pandemic and the feeling that I had been abandoned by the Church. It’s a story of the deep grief and the lossContinue reading “grieving eucharist, loving jesus”

main prayer altar

I’ve been collecting things for a long time to work into my main area where I pray if I’m at home and I’m alone. I pray in the living room with the kids, this is when it’s just me and God. I’ve had many good moments here, and I’ve worked hard to get it howContinue reading “main prayer altar”

thy kingdom come

My Father, who art in heavenI’m still scared of the idea of you as father Hallowed be thy nameLet all I do be done for youAnd for your son, Jesusand the sacrifice of his precious bloodand for the Holy Spiritwho resides within me Thy kingdom comethine, not minethy will be donethine, not mine On earthwhereContinue reading “thy kingdom come”

have mercy on me for i am in need

This is another of the prayers that I have written during my recovery, when I realized that I am in need of sobriety but cannot achieve it because I sure as hell spent a good portion of my life trying. I’ve been an addict since I was a child, after all, and I had gottenContinue reading “have mercy on me for i am in need”

prayer bead prayers to recognize we are beloved of god

I used to be unable to believe that God loved me. I didn’t even love myself. I still don’t love myself. My problem isn’t that I don’t love my neighbor as myself, it’s that I don’t even love myself. I often don’t believe other people love me, either. These are prayers I wrote to beContinue reading “prayer bead prayers to recognize we are beloved of god”

step six prayers

As I work through the 12 steps, I’ve been writing prayers for many of them. Here are two prayers I wrote during step 6. Amendment of Life God, I want to recover from my addiction and all the shitty things that I do to myself and to others as part of it. I want youContinue reading “step six prayers”

generational prayer

In the Magnificat, the Virgin Mary says: The Almighty has done great things for me:holy is his Name.He has mercy on those who fear himIn every generation. Things can be passed down from generation to generation. Some of these things are good, and some can be bad. I’m currently renouncing some of the bad andContinue reading “generational prayer”

personal prayer altar

Every night, I set my personal altar with reverence and respect, using my intuition to guide me. I always use at least one icon, a set of prayer beads whether that be the Anglican prayer beads I first learned on or the Catholic rosary which is quite meditative. I always have a plain white jarContinue reading “personal prayer altar”

rosary prayers for addicts

Earlier this week, I published a set of prayers for use with Anglican rosaries or prayer beads for LGBTQ people specifically, in Earth and Altar magazine. Those prayers were the latest prayers I had written, I have some that I wrote several months ago, that I wrote for addicts. They were the first set ofContinue reading “rosary prayers for addicts”