living liturgically (season one, episode four, advent 2021)

What I came to realize, right before Christmas, is that instead of focusing on all the terrible things of the past, I can enter Christmas knowing that Jesus has delivered me from those things…

some of my conversations with the saints #2

“We have a lot in common and I’m frustrated but all those who fight about what your history was, as if your being a sex worker would change your value and worth, because it doesn’t. I think that both you and I know that Jesus is in the business of redemption and healing, and that our past does not determine our status in the Kingdom.”

sorrowful mysteries in a time of grief

“Mystery is The Crowning with Thorns. The fruit of this mystery is moral courage. This is where I realized that sometimes things are just messed up and there’s nothing I can do about it. It takes me courage to give myself permission to grieve, and it takes courage to face what happened and let Jesus heal it. “

living liturgically (season one, episode two, advent 2021)

“I’m thankful that the trauma that has been suffered by victims of such crimes is being recognized for what it is. If I can’t get justice for the crimes committed against me, if I will be thankful that the trauma of others is being legitimized by verdicts such as these.”

the light shone in the darkness

I’ve been asked quite often lately why, after everything, I chose Jesus over the goddesses I worshipped for a while. Not only is that a legitimate question, it’s also a good one, and I’m grateful to be asked it. The short answer is in that the light of Christ shone in the darkness. Hecate wantedContinue reading “the light shone in the darkness”

the sacred art of stories

I was well over 30 years old when it occured to me, as someone who had been homeschooled in part so that I would not be exposed to science, that the creation stories in Genesis could be myths. I’d never considered that before, all I knew was that I was suddenly questioning the ludicrious ideaContinue reading “the sacred art of stories”

saint mary magdalene, pray for me

Saint Mary Magdalene, my patron, You once walked in darkness, you served the prince of darkness, and your life was hell. But then, you met Jesus. You saw Jesus, you chose Jesus. He saved you from your hell, and your life was forever changed. You renounced all you had been and all you had done,Continue reading “saint mary magdalene, pray for me”

finding jesus this holiday season

I see him as I pull into the drive-thru, and despite what I’ve been through myself, I want to pretend I didn’t see. He’s huddled up in a blanket, looking like he’s seen much better days, and he’s leaning against the wall outside the building. I get to the box and I order my food,Continue reading “finding jesus this holiday season”

prayer rope intercessions

When I came to the Episcopal Church, one of the things that I appreciated was the reciting and praying of traditional and memorized prayers. I had gotten to a point where I was unable to pray much at all, and so, although the words Our Father were very difficult because my father was very abusiveContinue reading “prayer rope intercessions”

tattoos, stories, prayer, redemption

My first tattoo I ever got was the word “grace” in cursive on my left wrist, with a date underneath it written like this 3-3-08. I still love the word grace on there, but I want to cover the date and I have a great way I want to fix that tattoo involving adding theContinue reading “tattoos, stories, prayer, redemption”