penitential rosary

I wanted to share a way in which I pray the rosary in a penitential manner when I’ve fucked up and need God’s help, especially with something in particular, which in this case was pride. Here’s an outline of how I do that, with an example that I prayed recently, after I had already doneContinue reading “penitential rosary”

penance

I began to explore the life of St. Francis and his spirituality first because of the stigmata. As I looked further into his life, there were some other things I noticed also, one was his insistence on living penance. Until recently, I’d thought of penance as something that’s asked of me when I make aContinue reading “penance”

it’s me again, jesus

Jesus, it’s me again.I feel like I’m a disappointment to you,I’m certainly a disappointment to myself.I know that I promised not to do that again,because I when I promised amendment of life,I truly did mean it at the time.But here I am, having done the same shit again.I learned it as a coping skill.I didContinue reading “it’s me again, jesus”

a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.”

Me: Jesus, I’ve fucked up again as far as being angry about shit I can’t control and in so doing, gotten to where I don’t feel as close to you, and to where I’m tempted to relapse. The thing is, I know I need to repent and as far as confessing, that’s what I’m doingContinue reading “a prayer of repentance, sort of: otherwise titled “fine, Jesus, I’ll do it.””

my prayer practice

I have wanted to share what some of my prayer practice looks like just to throw some ideas out there for anyone who is interested. I recommend reading Prayer Spa: Ancient Treatments for the Modern Soul as a helpful resource for anyone wanting further ideas on prayer practices. It’s a very short resource with someContinue reading “my prayer practice”

step six prayers

As I work through the 12 steps, I’ve been writing prayers for many of them. Here are two prayers I wrote during step 6. Amendment of Life God, I want to recover from my addiction and all the shitty things that I do to myself and to others as part of it. I want youContinue reading “step six prayers”