“but it only hurts me”

I remember telling my friend, when I started my step four in my recovery work, that some things weren’t important because they only hurt me. My friend called bullshit on that and she also said that I am of value and when I hurt myself I’ve still hurt someone. Often, the things that I thoughtContinue reading ““but it only hurts me””

marian consecration prayer

Tomorrow on the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, I will consecrate myself to Mary and in so doing, ultimately to Jesus, which is the point. I have written my own consecration prayer, but I will also use others as well. For those of you familiar with the baptismal renunciations and promises in the BookContinue reading “marian consecration prayer”

sackcloth and ashes

This is an offering to Mary by one of my personalities, Sorrow. Many of us are preparing for Marian consecration for the feast of Our Lady of Lourdes, and so we are reading, praying, and learning. Mary has been an excellent mother to us and most of us are glad to have her. So, hereContinue reading “sackcloth and ashes”

morning offering

The Book of Common Prayer has a liturgy for morning prayer which I like, but this is a morning offering I have put together, which is much shorter (which isn’t the point here), and it’s about committing myself to God each day. I’m sharing it on the first day of the year in case aContinue reading “morning offering”

finding jesus this holiday season

I see him as I pull into the drive-thru, and despite what I’ve been through myself, I want to pretend I didn’t see. He’s huddled up in a blanket, looking like he’s seen much better days, and he’s leaning against the wall outside the building. I get to the box and I order my food,Continue reading “finding jesus this holiday season”

tattoos, stories, prayer, redemption

My first tattoo I ever got was the word “grace” in cursive on my left wrist, with a date underneath it written like this 3-3-08. I still love the word grace on there, but I want to cover the date and I have a great way I want to fix that tattoo involving adding theContinue reading “tattoos, stories, prayer, redemption”

my prayer practice

I have wanted to share what some of my prayer practice looks like just to throw some ideas out there for anyone who is interested. I recommend reading Prayer Spa: Ancient Treatments for the Modern Soul as a helpful resource for anyone wanting further ideas on prayer practices. It’s a very short resource with someContinue reading “my prayer practice”

baptismal promises and covenant – following jesus

Spiritual practice looks different for everyone as well all come to Jesus in different ways, and my relationship with Jesus has been complex. Part of my spiritual practice is to renew my baptismal vows regularly, a minimum of once a week, to keep them on my mind. They are a great guide for Christian life,Continue reading “baptismal promises and covenant – following jesus”

baptismal promises and covenant – renunciation

Part of my personal spiritual practice is to renew my baptismal vows regularly. Every time I do this, something new jumps out at me and for a while I was concerned and thought did I lie when I took these promises at baptism, at confirmation, at reaffirmation? I don’t think I lied at all, lookingContinue reading “baptismal promises and covenant – renunciation”