the love and presence of jesus

Jesus, you are with me always.
Through your incarnation,
through your resurrection,
you were fully human
yet fully divine.

You were there in the past,
when I went through hell,
the hell of my own making
and the hell others made for me.
You were there at my birth,
you will be there at my death.
You are here in this present moment,
and the moment before it
and the moment after it.

Jesus, you love me always,
despite the bad things I have done
even when I walk away from you,
even when I deny you in my actions and words,
despite the awful things done to me
despite how I feel about myself.

I cannot escape your presence
I cannot escape your love
even if I want to.

You are with me.
You love me.
You nourish me,
with your body and blood.

I know that nothing will change your love for me,
or your presence in my life.
In life,
in death,
you love me and are with me.
Whether I encounter good things,
or evil things,
you love me and are with me.

In things present
in things past
in things future,
you love me and are with me.
In my descent,
in my ascent
you love me and are with me.

I acknowledge your love for me.
I acknowledge your presence in my life.

Thank-you for your love.
Thank-you for your presence.

Forgive me for my refusal to walk in your love.
Forgive me for my refusal to acknowledge your presence.
I am truly sorry, and I humbly repent.

I cannot escape your love.
I cannot escape your presence.

I love you too,
although very inadequately.

Published by Mary-Clare St. Francis

Mary-Clare St. Francis is a writer who sounds as boring as hell but who is intimately acquainted with the horrific and the sacred. For a long time, darkness has been her friend, but she now walks in the light of Christ. As a committed Episcopalian, her main contribution to the church is her ability to make the priests facepalm or swear, depending on the day and context. Mary-Clare has a Master of Arts in English and Creative Writing and lives in Mississippi with her four children.

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