my spirit leaves my body,
and I cry out
“Jesus, come with”
as my world starts spinning
this demon
is taking me on a trip
but I invited Jesus along,
which pissed the thing off,
but I’m always fine
with pissing off demons
the demon is leading
I’m close behind
traveling to a place
I never asked to go
I hope Jesus
will tell the demon
to go to hell
The joke is on me
It takes forever
to get where we are going
And then I see
we are here
at the top of hell
looking down
the demon did go to hell
It wants
to give me a tour
but Jesus says “no
this is all
I want her to see
this is enough”
I glimpse this place
and with much surprise
I realize
there is no fire
or brimstone
or weeping
or wailing
or gnashing of teeth
everything I was bought up to believe
was in hell
this hell
in comparison
is much scarier
than anything
I was ever taught
it’s shock to behold
and I shiver
glad that Jesus
is holding my hand
this is the most terrifying thing
I have ever seen in my life
and I have been places
scary
unholy places
and still nothing compares
hell is gray
hell is desolate
hell is a void
hell is a pit
No scenery
like mountains
or lakes
or beaches
no cityscapes
or asphalt
although it is the
color of concrete
this is no place
that I want to be
there is nothing here
except for demons
and other evil spirits
who rebelled
against God
I feel thankful
as I too
rebelled against God
and yet here I am
viewing hell
from above
and I will never
have to descend
to this place
this vile
unholy
miserable
place
the scariest thing
about hell
is that Jesus
isn’t here
although he’s beside me
for this trip
hell is devoid
of the presence
of God
the atmosphere
is moist
and stifling
and heavy
there is a gray mist
on an equally gray background
of a gray pit
gray
gray
gray
the mist
is the heaviest thing
I have ever felt
the mist
is the abject desolation
and loneliness
of this place
no friends
no family
no Jesus
no thanks
as my senses
behold
this awful place
I turn
to Jesus
“I’ve always
searched
for you
but I’ve never
chosen you
but now
I choose you
now
and forever”
as my senses
behold Jesus
in his humanity
and glory
I turn
to the demon
“hell will never
be my abode
but one day
it will be yours
and this place
is unholy
and you know
I’ve seen
and done
much
that is unholy
you’ve been
making promises
offering me
many things
Just like
Satan did
to Jesus
in the wilderness
and sometimes
those promises
were sparkly
and gaudy
like a bauble
but you
are a liar
from the very beginning
and today
I choose Jesus
forever
and always”
“she has seen enough”
says Jesus
to the demon
“and do believe
she has chosen”
the demon
dare not
disobey Jesus
and so begins
the journey back
to where my body
is laying
in a recliner
by the window
with the sun
shining in
waiting
for my spirit
to return
my spirit
returns
to the body
Jesus
with eyes
filled with compassion
looks at me
and leaves
the demon
however
is still here
but it lost
a lot of
its power
I see it
for the liar
that it is
the demon
seeks
the ruin
of souls
and it almost
ruined mine
but I
choose Jesus
I stand up
and I walk
to my prayer altar
and I lay
with my face
on the ground
totally in awe
and I begin:
Lord Jesus Christ
Son of God
have mercy on me
hell
